I don’t even know how to talk about it or what to say. I’m starting to lose track of how long she’s been gone. I wake up in a panic thinking I forgot to go to class or study for a test. I sit on the side of the bed…heart pounding…and realize I’m not dreaming about my own life. And further more, I don’t know much about her new life so there is absolutely no bearing for these nightmares. I am creating a life full of negative drama in my nightmares. Good God! Ridiculous! I am absolutely fr**kin ridiculous!